Tag Archives: embies

Still truckin’

So those 2 little guys are still truckin’ along. Quality seems to be good – though they don’t seem to have an official ‘grade’ this early. They’re noted to be 1-2 grade (one being the best). We’ll know tomorrow once we arrive for the transfer if they’re still viable.
If anybody reading has any insight on day 3 vs day 5 transfer, I’d be interested to hear it.
Otherwise, I’ll report back tomorrow.


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The Others

Sad news on our remaining 4 little fellers. All arrested so we’ve nothing to freeze.

Here are 4 things I feel about that.

1. This means if this cycle doesn’t turn out as we hope we have to start at the beginning. A thought that’s hard to comprehend at this time.

2. I feel more pressure for a BFP – as if there wasn’t enough of that already.

3. I wanted them to make it – I was rooting for them to pull through and I’m disappointed I didn’t make them strong enough to do so.

4. They were only part of my life for 6 days, but I loved them. And now they’re gone. And it may seem ridiculous but it’s sad just the same.

Not much else to report. Except if the probability of success increases in proportion to the increase of my bust size, we’re laughing.



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Thank you very much

First order of business is to address the two awards I’ve been lovingly given in the past week.



Please excuse my tardiness on this one. It was given to me by WhatIF
and I gratefully accept.

So it comes with homework.

Here’s the scoop:

The rules:
1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.

2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with “Honest Scrap.” Well, there’s no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon.

3) List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

So, in reverse order…

10 Honest things about me

1. Popcorn is my favourite food.

2. My car has a name – Rocky – and since the day I got him I have referred to him as “my special guy”. When I met my husband that title did not transfer to him.

3. One of my cats snores. Alot. Really loud.

4. I had the pleasure of sitting in the Captain’s chair on the set of Enteprise.

5. Ultimate frisbee makes be very happy but I haven’t been able to play since I hurt my back last March.

6. Sometimes I really dislike people.

7. I sing. Outloud. Often. Badly.

8. I really love the feeling of kneaded bread before it starts to rise. I’ve been baking it since I was a little girl.

9. I can’t sleep on Christmas Eve I still get so excited about Christmas morning.

10. I stop to watch firetrucks go by and wave to the firemen.

Now for the blogs. Some of these may have already been awarded but those people are probably just extra awesome.

1. CD 1

2. The Barreness’s Blog

3. May the Road Rise

4. Forcing Seeds

5. Conceive This

6. All Grown Up

7. It’s a Zoo Around Here

Phew. Ok – now award # 2

sisterhood_award1 I know I’m supposed to post a bunch more blogs. But I only have one to add to the list above. I’m nominating my friend over at My Baby Making Journey. We’re not just cycle buddies but cycle twins. And I wouldn’t have gotten through this without her.

We’re at the same clinic and are now friends on and off the interwebs.

Tomorrow at 9 (me) and 9:15 (her) will have our day 5 transfers.

Yippee. It’s my last night before I’m PUPO. Have never been pregnant before. But I’ll be pregnant tomorrow. At least for a while. And I’m thrilled. And I’m terrified. And I just can’t wait.

Big day tomorrow. Not sure I’ll sleep a wink. I’ll file a report in the AM on how many made it to blast and how it goes.

Sleep tight little guys. We’ll see you tomorrow.


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Gimme 5

Day 5 transfer it is. On Wednesday (time TBD) the little embies – or blasts as they should be by that point – come on home.

In case you were wondering:

(answers to some of the brilliant questions I’ve been asked by people IRL)

1. No, we won’t be transferring all six back to make me sexto-mom.

2. No, transferring two doesn’t guarantee we’ll get two babies (or one for that matter).

3. No, we won’t know the sex at this stage of the game.

4. Yes it will be great to have the wait over. (Not that it means the waiting is done – we switch one wait for another.)

5.  No, I can’t visit them in the lab tomorrow.

Right now we still have 6 little dudes in the lab – all are grade 1 and 2 (on a 1 to 5 scale with 1 being best). There are 3 9cell+, 1 7-8 cell and 2 6 cell.

Not sure I’ll get a report tomorrow – I think it’s just the time to come for transfer so likely won’t know any more till Wednesday.

Phew. Made it through another day. Hang in there little guys. We’re almost past this part.

PS : I got another award today and still can’t figure out how to get the little picture on my blog. That’s 2 I’m behind on. Can anybody help?


Filed under infertility, ivf

Have my Cake and Eat it Too…

I have to say that when I decided the No-Baby Shower was a good idea I was a long way from where I am today. I was strung out on Lupron – had the threat of cancel at every turn and needed something to look forward to that wasn’t going to suddenly go away.

Then in the blink of an eye I found myself post ER with sweet little embies tucked away in the lab and my need to mark the occasion changed. Changed – but didn’t go away.

My camera got lost in the ‘mom’s coming over oh shit we’d better clean up around here scramble’ but I can describe my first official “NBS”.

I bought myself a gift on the interwebs and it arrived Friday afternoon while I was still floating on a sea of valium/morphine. New Rubber boots. Here, let me see if I can find a photo online.


They’re super swell. Then I made chocolate cupcakes with mint icing for party food. I listened to Ingrid Michaelson as I savoured my cupcake and I had an inch (I swear, just an inch) of Cline – Zinfandel. I really miss wine.

And all the while I was supposed to be thinking about me and how it’s ok that we haven’t added to our family yet and  that doesn’t make me any less deserving of some pampering – I couldn’t keep my mind off our little embies.

(Which doesn’t bode well for all the swearing up and down that if I had a baby I would be able to maintain a conversation about something not related to said child)

So here’s the report: Of the 6 we had yesterday – all 6 are still growing strong. All are grade 1 or 2 on a 1-5 scale with 1 being best. 5 are 3-4 cells which is right where they should be and the 6th is a bit ahead.

As my friend Janice said this morning… (she’s my buddy at the clinic who’s ER and ET are the same days as mine and is the exact mirror of my cycle including estrogen levels as we stimmed, number of follicles retrieved and fertilized and number still going strong today) I am more pregnant than I have ever been to my knowledge.

I am the mother of 24 cells – give or take. So I had a second cupcake to celebrate the majesty that will be returned to my care on Wednesday. I know there’s still a very long road. They may not make it through. But I feel so incredibly blessed to feel this joy.

A fab pair of boots. And 6 little fighters. I didn’t get one gift today. I got seven. Eight if you count the hope I thought had abandoned me.


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