There are two lines hidden in those stupid sticks. I know because against better judgment – knowing it’s really REALLY early – I peed on one today.
And low and behold there it was. The other pink line. I sort of thought it was a cosmic joke – that there was no other line and no one was telling me it was all a big hoax.
Apparently not. I just sucked until now.
The forum that I belong to has a number of girls with Beta’s in March and they were peeing up a storm today. And I thought I had willpower. And that I would hold out. And that because I knew it was really to early to see anything that I was just setting myself up for a big letdown.
Then as I was making dinner, I was searching for a seldom used ingredient in a seldom used cupboard, I came across the stash of sticks that I’ve been collecting. I buy a box when they’re on sale out of habit. Well, with 4 months on the BCP, I have quite a collection. So I took them out and piled them on the stairs to carry up to our loo.
Well, then they were staring at me – and staring at me. And finally just as Idol was coming on I asked husband if he though it would be so bad if I – you know – just one. He’d barely sputtered out an answer and I had the box open and was racing up the stairs.
I’m sure glad I did.
Now I know that there are about a million little milestones between a premature pee stick and baby. And I know that it’s so early this blip on the radar could be gone as early as tomorrow.
But tonight – for the first time – I head off to bed pee-stick pregnant.
I’ll test again in the morning to see if it’s getting any more…pink. Or if it’s back to one pink line.
I just can’t believe it. The bubblebabies may be staying longer than I imagined, and if I’m really lucky, longer than I ever thought possible.