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Holding It

Waiting to pee for 9 or 10 days isn’t a pleasant experience. And wondering if every tickle in your tummy, every twinge, every gas bubble has deeper meaning is enough to drive you crazy. And I think it just might.

You’ve got to wonder why I’m not used to waiting by now. I mean we’ve been waiting for the stork for 2 and a half years. Waiting for medical help for 1.5 of those, waiting for IVF for 3 months before starting, waiting for the suppression to end, the stims to end – the trigger, the ER, the ET, the call about the remaining morulas. Sheesh. It’s like waiting has become the number one hobby around here.

The thing is, that pesky Doc kept talking about “grade one” this and “perfect” that. And gosh darn it, he looked hopeful. Now that hope was as much that we’d help his positive stats as it was for getting us a baby I’m sure. But hey – I can live with that. I like to be good at my job too – and if other people benefit too, well winners all around.

It’s the old ‘H’ word. The word that must not be spoken -(hope)- and it’s hanging around just close enough that I can feel it. And it makes the days pass so very slowly. But at night? When it’s quiet? And I can feel every bubble and gurgle and pop?  Then – that (hope). That’s when I’m holding it close.


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2 Blasts Off

Just a quick note as I’m trying to put an end to a little post transfer twinging – we had a ‘textbook’ (according to the doc) transfer of two grade 1 blasts today. Won’t know if we have any snowbabies till tomorrow. Beta’s on the 18th.

Wore the new heart sock which got more than one smile and was there with my ‘cycle friend’ who went right after me and also had a great ET.

So – knocked up until further notice. Still trying to wrap my head around that. It’s rare that I get to be something I’ve never been before.

Let the wait (and the worry) begin. 14 days till beta.

Stick, babies stick.


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Thank you very much

First order of business is to address the two awards I’ve been lovingly given in the past week.



Please excuse my tardiness on this one. It was given to me by WhatIF
and I gratefully accept.

So it comes with homework.

Here’s the scoop:

The rules:
1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.

2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with “Honest Scrap.” Well, there’s no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon.

3) List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

So, in reverse order…

10 Honest things about me

1. Popcorn is my favourite food.

2. My car has a name – Rocky – and since the day I got him I have referred to him as “my special guy”. When I met my husband that title did not transfer to him.

3. One of my cats snores. Alot. Really loud.

4. I had the pleasure of sitting in the Captain’s chair on the set of Enteprise.

5. Ultimate frisbee makes be very happy but I haven’t been able to play since I hurt my back last March.

6. Sometimes I really dislike people.

7. I sing. Outloud. Often. Badly.

8. I really love the feeling of kneaded bread before it starts to rise. I’ve been baking it since I was a little girl.

9. I can’t sleep on Christmas Eve I still get so excited about Christmas morning.

10. I stop to watch firetrucks go by and wave to the firemen.

Now for the blogs. Some of these may have already been awarded but those people are probably just extra awesome.

1. CD 1

2. The Barreness’s Blog

3. May the Road Rise

4. Forcing Seeds

5. Conceive This

6. All Grown Up

7. It’s a Zoo Around Here

Phew. Ok – now award # 2

sisterhood_award1 I know I’m supposed to post a bunch more blogs. But I only have one to add to the list above. I’m nominating my friend over at My Baby Making Journey. We’re not just cycle buddies but cycle twins. And I wouldn’t have gotten through this without her.

We’re at the same clinic and are now friends on and off the interwebs.

Tomorrow at 9 (me) and 9:15 (her) will have our day 5 transfers.

Yippee. It’s my last night before I’m PUPO. Have never been pregnant before. But I’ll be pregnant tomorrow. At least for a while. And I’m thrilled. And I’m terrified. And I just can’t wait.

Big day tomorrow. Not sure I’ll sleep a wink. I’ll file a report in the AM on how many made it to blast and how it goes.

Sleep tight little guys. We’ll see you tomorrow.


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