All in.

If you’re gonna go against the odds and take one last run at something, I believe there’s no point in half-assing it.
I kind of left you hanging about what we would do next. When I started the supplements, I wasn’t sure whether we’d go through with the next cycle or not.
In fact, it came down to 1 hour before the clinic closed on my last day 1 and I still hadn’t decided.
I googled ‘how do you know when enough is enough TTC’ but I didn’t get any good advice.
…Except for one thing. One person said to ask yourself if you’d be able say in a month or 12 or twelve years from now that you believed you’d done everything you could.
And when I put it that way to myself I realized I had one cycle left in me.
But if I was going to go for it, I’d have to be all in.

Since then, I’ve embraced that theory whole-heartedly. The supplements have continued. I’ve been doing acupuncture. And we’ve added some extra drugs to the regime to go all out this cycle.
Because I want to be able to say I did everything. EVERYTHING I could.

Tonight the first drug starts. I haven’t been able to find out too much on SAIZEN, just that it’s controversial. But we’re doing it so I’ll let you know how that part goes.

The cycle proper should start next week. It’s a quick protocol so we could be in for ER as soon as 2 weeks from Sunday.

It’s time for finger crossing and all that.

Wish us luck.

It’s a long shot, to be sure. But every now and again the long shot takes it.

And I have always been partial to underdogs. They don’t have the luxury to half-ass anything.

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2 responses to “All in.

  1. Fingers, toes, etc…all crossed. We, too, will be whole-assing it in the near future. Here’s to the underdogs.

  2. MAA

    Good luck. Our first attempt ended like your last and we’re embarking on attempt two. Your blog has kept me grounded and gave me the motivation to keep on going.

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