Um, so I think maybe this isn’t going so well. After barely sleeping last night I found myself at the office early to do a little catching up. You know, get a jump on the day? First, my computer wouldn’t connect to the network, and I actually had a vision of snapping it over my knee. Not even sure I’m strong enough to do that but walked down the hall to grab a friend from her office to get her to sit down at my desk and sort it out. She looked at me strangely but I’m pretty sure could judge by the look on my face, didn’t want to ask any questions.
Computer was fixed and I calmed down into my work.
A little while later, while messaging with my BFF on Skype I found myself sitting there, office door open and tears streaming down my face. The thing is, I couldn’t remember when they started.
Got my self all calmed down a second time and thankfully had one thing to check off after another for the rest of the day. Nothing went wrong and after what felt like 67 hours, the day was finished and I was on my way home.
I really hope I’m not in for 16 more days like that because I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to handle it. I’ve been reading around and either no one else is admitting to being a Lupron nut job or I’m an isolated case of crazy.
If you found yourself completely out of sorts – and I mean really freaking out while on suppression please let me know. I’m a bit nervous that this is going horribly wrong…