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12 weeks day after tomorrow
…or it would have been. 12 weeks. I feel like I have less right than others to feel this heart break. I mean, I have one right? And every one keeps telling me that. Is that the case? Or does … Continue reading
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never never
I’m having a hard time. I’ll admit it. I’m alright when I’m safe at home where Baby Olive was a real thing that happened to everyone who lives in the house. But outside my own little world it hits home … Continue reading
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You slipped through our hands
Dear Olive, Every time I hear the bridge of the song Sandcastles by Justin Roberts I tear up thinking of you. Which, considering it’s the only song your brother wants to have sung to him at bedtime, is often. “We … Continue reading
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it begins, the end.
Dear Olive, Child of my heart. You’ll go from me today, but you’ll never leave me. I’m so sorry we’ll never meet. I love you very much. Mommy
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It’s the hope…
Loss. End. Final. I’m waiting for it to be done and done. D&C tomorrow then nothing. What remains are the memories of going to bed talking quietly in the dark – is it a boy or girl? What will it … Continue reading
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at least
At least it didn’t go further then end the same way at least it didn’t happen in the middle of nowhere on our holiday at least i wasn’t at the office at least i did the best i could at … Continue reading
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it’ s bad news today, she said.
Dear Bubble2 – I learned today that your heart stopped beating and you stopped growing at 7w6d. That means you’ve been with me a week and a half and all this time I’ve been talking to you and patting your … Continue reading
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