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Three is not a crowd. But it will have to do.

Here we are again. At the brink. Just got the call saying we will trigger tonight. There are 3 eggs that look good and we’re not going to take any chances of losing those. We’re a day earlier than planned … Continue reading

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12 weeks day after tomorrow

…or it would have been. 12 weeks. I feel like I have less right than others to feel this heart break. I mean, I have one right? And every one keeps telling me that. Is that the case? Or does … Continue reading

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never never

I’m having a hard time. I’ll admit it. I’m alright when I’m safe at home where Baby Olive was a real thing that happened to everyone who lives in the house. But outside my own little world it hits home … Continue reading

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You slipped through our hands

Dear Olive, Every time I hear the bridge of the song Sandcastles by Justin Roberts I tear up thinking of you. Which, considering it’s the only song your brother wants to have sung to him at bedtime, is often. “We … Continue reading

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it begins, the end.

Dear Olive, Child of my heart. You’ll go from me today, but you’ll never leave me. I’m so sorry we’ll never meet. I love you very much. Mommy

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it’ s bad news today, she said.

Dear Bubble2 – I learned today that your heart stopped beating and you stopped growing at 7w6d. That means you’ve been with me a week and a half and all this time I’ve been talking to you and patting your … Continue reading

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The Others

Sad news on our remaining 4 little fellers. All arrested so we’ve nothing to freeze. Here are 4 things I feel about that. 1. This means if this cycle doesn’t turn out as we hope we have to start at … Continue reading

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And then I cried at work…

Ok – so here’s a rather personal story that is adding to my up-and-down mood. This is kind of disjointed. My apologies. So my Dad died in 2000. A heartbreaking turn of events that wasn’t unexpected but devastating just the … Continue reading

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